I couldn't sleep last night at all. I deactivated my facebook in the afternoon to avoid the unnecessary drama that I keep getting involved in. I created my facebook page (and by the way, I had another facebook account in the past that had all of my friends and relatives and siblings etc...but I was starting to receive suspicious e-mails from individuals I didn't even know or from fake accounts, inquiring about why it is that I had so many Jewish people on my facebook...or why I was part of certain groups etc...
So I decided to just disappear. Not very brave of me, I know, but I had enough on plate (my parents and friends) and the last thing I wanted to worry about was random strangers from FB.
So yeah where was I? lol so yeah I deactivated my first facebook account and after a while, I kind of missed Facebook, I missed Yosef. So I decided to create another facebook account. My intention was to of course build a network of Jewish friends but more importantly, to better keep in touch with Yosef and faceboook was a very interactive way of doing so.
Anyway, it worked for the first few months...we were chatting on FB's chat, commenting on each others pictures and writing sweet little notes on each others walls. well, until I realized that I I was alone and had no one to take care of me....that I have bills to pay, rent to pay, roommates drama, threats to worry about etc etc...I swear, being an adult is so over-rated!
So I became less and less active on FB...but it wasn't just me. Yosef was also very busy with his school and youtube page...and so I saw that there was no point of having a facebook page anymore. Sure, there are some people I would like to still keep in touch with, but there's always Gtalk, YM and of course blogspot.
Ok why am I even talking about Facebook? lol I think what I wanted to say was that I couldn't sleep at night because I had upset Yosef so much that it seemed that he was actually screaming in his email (Can you believe it?) I was freaking out :(
I'm just so glad that I got to hear his voice today...I feel so much better.
On a different note, the weather is just gorgeous today! It is 12C and will be around 22C in the afternoon and I just couldn't be more thankful! I want to see some sunshine! I'm planning to go on a bike ride today :D I'll post some pictures...and now I feel bad for sitting here and talking to myself when its gorgeous outside.
Later!
About Me
- Yokheved
- My name is Yokheved, I'm 23 and I live in Canada. I was born to a Jewish mother ז"ל and a Muslim father. My parents met in Germany while they were studying to become engineers, fell in love and got married. They later moved to Canada and had me. But they say all "good" things come to an end and my parents' "happy marriage" was no exception. Soon after their divorce, my father had full custody of me and I was destined to be a Muslim. My father then got married and I lived with his wife and children. I was raised according to Islamic, Shi'a values. I wore the Hijab, prayed 5 times a day and I fasted. I was your typical Muslimah...well up until 2004, when my mother got in touch with me through an old family friend. At first, I was angry, upset, brainwashed and I sure as hell did not want anything to do with her.But one thing lead to another and I became increasingly interested in Judaism (I wish I could write more but there's a limit of characters). By 2008, I was ready to tell my father that I wanted to live my life as a Jew.He cried. We both cried. And that's why I'm busy taping and gluing my life together
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