Amazing dinner!

Hello,

I just came back from an amazing dinner! I had so much fun and I'll probably blog about it tomorrow. Today, however, I want to blog about or rather recall a dream I've been having a lot lately...3 nights in a row to be exact. Same characters, same place, same timing...It's not the first time I've experienced something like this. I've had repetitive dreams before. I don't know if they serve any purpose...or point towards something but they're certainly not random. Lately, I've been thinking a lot about moving. I know that it probably won't happen until the lawsuit is taken care of, but the thought is very scary and intimidating. I have spent my whole life traveling and moving from one place to another. I never intended for Winnipeg to be my final destination...I clearly don't belong here...but I sure hope and pray to God that I find my final destination very soon :( I can't do this anymore. I want to settle down and live a normal lfie. Oh how I miss home :( I miss my father, my brother my sisters my house my neighborhood. I don't know how much longer I can cope.
So I see myself in this old synagogue, its huge and old and its got Hebrew and Arabic writings on its walls...I couldn't read the Arabic, it was too blurry. I see myself standing there, alone (as usual). But I seem very confused and stressed out. and at one point I think I started crying. And then I wake up.

I think I have an idea of why I'm seeing what I'm seeing...Maybe I was having a conversation with God. I used to have godly meetings all the time...where I just talk and He listens. He was my best friend. Not anymore. He let me down so many times. I don't think I trust Him anymore. I'm so mad at Him. He was my everything :(
Oh how I want to talk to Him again :( I only want to ask Him to give me patience and the ability to forgive those who wronged me.